Toddlerhood, a poem

I found this poem, and had to share it!

Toddlerhood by Hollie McNish..

Now you can walk and now you can run
Now that new words drip each day from your tongue
Now that your mind is becoming itself
Now that your child is developing strength
Now that your thoughts have become independent
Your brain is conceiving it’s first self reflections
Now that your dreams are becoming to grow
Now that your own self is starting to show
Now that your confidence is swelling each day
And all baby like features are floating away
Now that your self is making it’s moves
We complain and claim that its terrible twos
Our first shitty label for small humankind
The minute they start to know their own minds

Keeping busy and losing friends

I am in between births for a while, and my hubby is gone in SC for a few weeks. The boys and I are trying to keep busy! Running errands, gardening tons, building things together and lots of play dates. Figuring out how to change up things with Asher as he has completely become this little baby bully lately! I feel like I cant take him anywhere. But when i watch him its not out of aggression that he is acting out, its like he is getting overwhelmed or wanting my attention. I dont know! I will be watching him more to see what we need to do. Really its coming from the way Lincoln treats him, so we are working on that here too! Ahhh the joys of being a parent. I always struggle with this age. I started blogging when Lincoln was his age and struggled too, though they are completely different kids with different ways of doing things.

On that note, I have learned so much about friendship and what that truly means in the last few days. I found people who you thought might be a great friend can end up hurting you the worst. I will keep that in mind for the future and stick to keeping people around me that exude positive energy and wont turn on me in a second! I am 26! Not in high school anymore, I did not even know that people still got into drama fights at this age. I am blogging about it only because I need to vent, and remember how the event made me feel.

I will do a pic update next time! I got lots of great pics from our mini beach trip. The girls come to stay for the summer in about a week and a half, too. Look forward to having them around. Good night world... 

Summer Goals!

Wanted to set out a few summer goals for myself and my family. Ill add more when I think of them:

• I want to lose another 15 lbs and KEEP it off. 
• Work hard at my garden and help it yield the most it can
• Make fresh salsa from my tomatoes, and pickles from my cucumbers! 
• Come up with some creative ideas for the ridiculous amount of sweet corn we will probably have
• Work with Lincoln at writing his name and ABCs, and hopefully have him at least writing 50% of them by then end of summer, depending on how he takes the direction 
• Work with Asher at understanding words and communicating 
• Increase the hits from my website and doula work this summer
• Spend lots of time with my sisters, go camping, workout together 

loving this place

I am absolutely loving this new place we have here in NC. Despite the bugs, everything has been so wonderful. I drink my morning coffee on the front porch while the kids play, I run in the yard barefoot and the kids run around nakey butt just because they can. I work hard on my garden and I enjoy being outdoors more than anything. When zack gets home from work the kids and our dog run out to meet him at the gate and they play in the yard some more, or ride around on the riding lawn mower. Its so silly and entertaining. Then after we eat a dinner all together in our lovely dining room we play outside some more and catch fireflies. Totally loving this place.


I do not want to leave.